I have a mother who is an alcoholic, her name is Iris. For as long as I can remember I knew she had some problems but I never stopped loving her and I have always just forgiven her. She never did raise me and she really has never been there for me or for my boys but I continue my mother/daughter relationship with her.
Today will be 16 Days, yes 16 Days since I have heard my mothers voice. Is she missing I asked, I think so. Is she missing other people ask and the answer will be no. She's binge drinking, this is not her first time. But what makes it her first with me is that she has not called me. I can always call and leave a message and within 20 minutes, no later than an hour she will call me regardless. But no call, that's what kills me, no word! My sister has made a missing person report, but I think the cops already labeled her and just refuse to put that much more effort in finding her, I can't blame them but it does anger me that I am in this position. 16 days. In the pit of my stomach I know something wrong. I just wish it wasn't there. A deep sadness has entered my soul because of her. I keep replaying a song in my head, this song I have always dedicated to her, it's Christina Aguilera-Hurt. Where ever she is and whatever she is doing, I hope she will forever know that I love her.
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